Wednesday, December 8, 2010

::Breezy Days::

Aaah~ The days seem to be flickering by so fast~ Just a second ago it was the first day of the month and now it's the end of the first week. =/ Sometimes I just wish time would stop breezing by and just pause to let me catch my breath. ><

The past is a tempting place to live in and the future...well, it leaves less to be desired for. >> But still, the present is pretty awesome, despite the disappearing time, so I guess I'll just have to make do then. XD Plus, there's an epicly epic teddy and cookies in the present, so why not? =P

Weeelll~ These past few days, I've been busy lazing about and getting conned to go for prom. I gotta admit though, I'm kinda curious and a tad bit interested in it. ^^;; But after a chat with a moronic douche, I'm worried about going. == Argh, whatever~ I'll just update my story to vent. xD Toodles~ ^^

time is like the wind, it lifts the light and leaves the heavy.

Monday, November 29, 2010

::I'm Back~::

I'm actually afraid to calculate how long I've been gone. .w. Ooo laa laa~ Many things happened these past few months~ Of course, some I'd gladly share, but the others..meh, it's a secret for now. x) It was humiliating enough to share with my Bubb which is weird since I tell her pretty much everything under the sun. xP I never want to go through that process again. >< And I thought the hardest thing was admitting who I had a crush on. Ugh. Junk. ==

Anywho, moving on to less awkward stuff~ xP Due to enduring Banana Split ramble about it at any free moment, I eventually picked up You're Beautiful and watched it. Oh. Em. Gee. It was so so so cool~ Ohmigosh, Jeremy! He's so damn freaking cute and naive and funny and all out adorable! xD I love that cutesy blondie with all my heart~ I swear he can do no wrong in my eyes. =] Sadly, I still think Boys Over Flowers is waaaay better than this drama though. Shush~ Don't tell Banana Split. XD

Anyways~ Looks like I left my story hanging once again. >w> Lawl, I'm sure Bubb knows how often that's happened before. x3 Okies then, time to update~ xD Toodles~

procrastination is the only field i can forever excel in.

Sunday, August 29, 2010

::Things I'll Never Say::

Gosh darn it, I cant sleep tonight. == Staring at the ceiling doesn't seem to be helping either. >< Amazingly enough, now at 12.38 in the morning, all alone in my quiet little room with the AC blasting, I feel depressed. O.o Such a totally weird state to be in right now. -__- Plus, no Bubb to vent to. Sorry me bloggie, but looks like you gotta suffer my emo-ness again. =P

At times, I truly can't help but wonder. Could it be that we're just avoiding all of it? Running so far away to prevent having to face the bitter truth. Hiding so deep within the shadows so it may never find us. Burying our hearts so far gone until we are oblivious to those hidden feelings. Between you and I, I think these efforts of ours are just wasting our precious time. Moments in time that could have been spent in so many better ways.

Those burning feelings we stifle deep in our hearts, lurking at the corners, begging to be released... I'm always torn between two choices. Should they be brought to light and spoken aloud when the cost is hurting your fragile heart? Or should they be tucked away in silence as we move on in our lives despite it killing me slowly inside? Every time I think of this, a single thought plagues my mind: Which would be better? To be hurt or to hurt...?

tears are the words in your heart that could never be spoken,
so i'm glad to stand under the pouring rain,
for none can see the caged words leave my heart silently.

Sunday, August 8, 2010


Gah. I can't remember the last time I touched my blog. .w.  Seriously, my mind can't grasp a single shred of the memory. @u@ I offer thee my humblest apologies me precious beloved bloggie~ T.T I promise I shall try my best to update as often as I possibly can~ Oh damn, I forgot. PMR is slowly inching closer and closer. I wont even have time to come online. T^T

Yeah, though it's a couple of months away and my despicable trials are next week, it still hasn't registered into my brain that my doomsday is closer than ever. >.< Looking around to see my friends studying their butts off isn't fazing me either. .-.  Long story short, I'm such a goner. Gosh, I still haven't touched my books. My Dad will burn me where I stand. .w.

Bah~ I'll just tell my stressing brain to shove it. xD Time to cheer up~ I solemnly swear I shall - attempt to - study the best I can~ That means no giving up after the first thirty seconds and snoozing on my books. -coughs- Then, to kill some so-called stress, I shall sneak off to the Asaban in Taylor's, stalk hot cosplayers, daydream about Adam Lee Tek Jun and get high on my epic songs~ xD

when the clouds clear and the sun is here,
with your hand in mine, i shall give it my all,
and, i promise you, we will touch the impossible sky.

Saturday, May 1, 2010

::Boys Over Flowers::

Oooo~ Again, I failed to update for a super long time. T~T Okies, I shall rant my heart out about my newest craze, kay? x] Lately, me buddy Nadhirah keeps gushing over this Korean drama she's been watching called Boys Over Flowers. ^^ Since she seemed so madly in love with it, I decided to borrow it and have a go to see just what exactly all the fuss was about. xD

Even before I was halfway through the series, I clearly understood why all the girls went crazy over it. I'm now a fan girl of it too. *^* My God, even the beginning got me hooked. I mean, I've yet to watch a series where the pauper heroine working in a laundry shop gets sent to deliver a uniform to a student about to jump off a roof and commit suicide. Wonderful first meeting indeed. XD

It was interesting to watch her grudgingly accept a scholarship into a super elite school as requested by the principal to quell the waves of media. Of course, the paparazzi went berserk when the four hottest and richest guys in Korea played a part in the student's almost death~ Especially since the moment Jan Di steps into the school, all hell breaks lose. >:D

The boys in F4 and Jan Di kept me company through many sleepless nights. But of course, my eyes keep straying over to Ji Hoo whenever I see the whole lot of them. Man, he's so sweet, cute, nice, quiet, kind, sleepy, adorable and drool-worthy~ I could go on all day about him~ XD If a guy like that existed in real life, I'd be in heaven alright~

i'm all alone crying just for you,
you know my heart is missing for you,
baby, i love you, i'm waiting for you!

Sunday, March 21, 2010

::Super Junior::

Ohmigosh! Ohmigosh! I just came home from SuJu's awesomely awesome, mind blowing, outta this world, ferociously epic concert! =3 Oh gosh, they were the epitome of all that is stellar, cool and holy in this world tonight. xD I felt totally breathless as I watched them sing to tunes I brainwashed myself with and dance perfectly to every beat. Mith and I were screaming our lungs out in ecstasy and bounced excitedly in our seats from the moment they came onto stage till we had to leave. Wow-za!

Yeah, the concert may have started an hour later. Yeah, we had to wait in a long line to enter the stadium since the obsessed fans were already waiting hours before it started. Yeah, we had some trouble with our seats. But for the surreal dream like experience I got after the concert was over, I'd do it all over again. xD God, I don't even know where to start! xP

Okies, how about the first song they sang? =] As my ingenious brain carefully planned out during the long waiting time, my prediction that they would sing U to kick things off came true. ^-^  After that song, it's all a bunch of hazy memories filled with euphoric screaming. xDD But I do vaguely remember some of the songs like Knock Out, Shining Star, Rokoko, Sorry Sorry, Super Girl, Don't Don, It's You, Sorry Sorry Answer and What If. Of course, there's a hell lot more, but my brain turned into mush after that. *^*

Oh yeah, during the intervals where they rested for a bit to gear up for the next song, they had set up some stuff to occupy our time like cutesy plays and such. I cant remember most of them, but one was this video where a few of the SuJu members like Siwon were fighting off thugs in the rain. When they slowed some parts down to emphasize certain scenes, I drooled. x] It was then and there I knew the definition of the word hot. =3

Then, when they were singing Shining Star before the concert ended, my darling Leetuk looked into the audience which were using their flashlights to represent stars and he broke down. With tears in his eyes, he bowed over and over and said Thank You like a broken record. I felt so touched by that. =] God, they are so damn sweet! I'd pay any crazy amount to see them again next year, if they came down. ^-^ Anywho, I better stop now before this becomes the longest rant-filled post ever. xD

when i tell you i love you thousands of times,
even if my heart is on fire and as my lips dry,
if i am born again, it is still only you~

Tuesday, March 16, 2010


Damn, I'm feeling freakishly bored. >< I've got no manga nor stories to read so the Internet isn't offering me anything to do. Yeah, that's pretty much the end of the world. xD To make things worse, there isn't a person to bug within a two feet distance. == So I thought I'd just type out a poem that's been bugging me since, oh say about three minutes ago. xP Ignore the lameness of it all. It was inspired by a feather after all. xDD


He took my hand,
He helped me up,
He brushed me off,
Like only angels can...

He found my heart,
When nobody could,
And he fixed it up,
Like only angels can...

He saw through me,
And all the walls and lies,
Giving back my smile,
Like only angels can...

He looked me in the eye,
And told me he'll always love me,
Blessing me a happiness,
Like only he can...

Sunday, March 14, 2010

::Breaking Free::

Hallelujah~ Hallelujah~! The exams are over~ If there's ever a reason to rejoice, this would be exactly that. xD Wow, I'm feel so giddy in the head. Must be due to the fact that I'm uber grateful the first term exams are over. =] Since I didn't study much, it was pretty hard. xP But the English paper really threw me off. O.o It wasn't even according to the format. == Damn, for the first time in my fifteen years of life, I might get a B for my English. How utterly saddening. >_<

Anywho, putting the super lame exams aside, I finally get my beloved laptop back into my arms~ Yeah~~ Victory~! xD God, I missed Gin-kun so much~ Plus, I really cant wait to finish up my OHSHC viddie. Des has been waiting for the viddie for a long time now... ^^ll Least now I get to write some stories. Odd how many ideas popped into my head while waiting for the paper to end. xD Typing has never been so much fun. x3

However, most importantly, I get to buy books again~ Gosh, I can finally read my books~ ^^ Wheeeee~ Another super awesome cause to rejoice~ xD Despite being told not to, I was secretly reading Shiver by Maggie Stiefvater. =) The ending didn't leave me cursing and was pretty nice. ^^ Oh, and I also learned a valuable life lesson:  Never read your books during your exams cause it'll be finished faster than you think possible. ==

my heart feels heavy yet light.
the storm has past yet the clouds are dark.
could this all be the calm before the storm?

Saturday, March 6, 2010

::No Air::

Here's a teensy little trivia bit I learnt earlier on but never quite sunk into my brain. Fact Of Life: Exams are the bane of any sane person's existence which life brought upon us to bring about nothing but misery and depression. == Gawd, first term exams are on Wednesday. >_< I'd be lying if I said I was ready for it. I so lack the mood to study these days. -___- Then again, why would I? Everything is so utterly boring. xD

Anyways, on a much brighter note, today is the ra-va-ree model's birthday~! Everyone give a round of applause~ XDD But I still haven't finished her present yet. >> My ever forgetful dear father forgot to leave the laptop behind despite being reminded many times. ^^lll So, that makes my lame plan for her gift...for a lack of better word, screwed. xP

Bleeek~ My life has been filled to the brim with so much post-mortem stress lately. xD Exams which are sure to stress me out, birthdays to plan, my awesome VP and the fact that I've been feeling really irritable lately. == Man~ It would be so lovely if I could just pause everything, take a step back and relax. =] By the way, anyone ever notice that studying is student plus dying? x3

losing you is like living in a world with no air.
so dont steal my heart again when you dont even know i love you.

Monday, March 1, 2010

::Walking On Sunshine::

Oh. My. God. Jixie's party was freaking awesome! ^-^ There were so so many people over (I swear I knew only 15 out of the 60++ that came~ xD) but that made it all the more entertaining. x] At the party, they had a couple of cool games that didn't leave me feeling like a mini and this ice breaking thingy too. It was then did I meet this really awesome guy. =] His name's Abel and he looks like he should be 17 years old even though he's in his twenties. xD I sorely regret not getting his number. v_v

Anywho, after we got sorted into groups, we played this game where we had to pass sweets among our team mates using chopsticks~ xDD That one was superly tricky. xP Especially when the the candy with the highest points is this pinball-shaped one. The thing kept falling off! XD But, all in all, it was great. Me buddies were there and I had a really nice time. =] I can't wait for another one of his parties. ^^ Ooo laa laa, I wonder if Alvin will seek revenge and dunk D2 into the pool next time? Let's pray for it! =3

you may not notice, but your every word keeps me hypnotized.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

::I'm With You::

This is so totally unfair. == I mean, I understand where you're coming from. Right now, saying No to him is pretty much the right thing to do what with it being such a crucial time with studies and stuff. But I absolutely loath the way it you put it. =/ He was being sincere and baring his heart and soul for you and only you. The least you could do was decline him with a straight face and avoid the laughing. -__-

Therefore, that has left me totally bummed and in a bitter mood. Hell, I didn't even feel like doing my Maths work. == That may as well have been the sign of Armageddon. Argh, whatever, it's not my problem. Plus, I'm totally helpless. Even if I wanted to do something, I can't do anything. >< I wish I could help you, my dear friend. =/

lying complicates things, but the truth hurts you and i far worse.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

::Parties Galore::

Wow, would ya look at that, I'm invited to another party~ xD Yay-ness~ ^-^ But it's kinda saddening though. == The first time ever I'm literally flooded with invites to parties and it's me busiest study-filled year to date. T_T Someone out there has something huge against me I tell you. *shifty eyes* But still, I'm totally buzzed about the party. =) It's by the pool and it's gonna be a huge bunch of people there from in and out of school too~ =]

Sadly, the theme has left me in a slight pinch. I mean, c'mon, red and Hawaiian? == I'm sure as hell not popping up there in a grass skirt and doing the hula. xP Ah well, I've got loads of time on my hand. May as well brainstorm with me Bubb and decide what to wear. xD But the biggest catch of all is what I had to give up to go for the party. -__- The deal with the Devil, pardon, I mean my Dad, was that I have to do more work in return. Sucks, I know. >_<

But I doubt I'm gonna care much about it later. xP I have a feeling I'm gonna get super high at that party. ^^ Ah well, whatever~ It's totally worth the extra effort anyway. =] Live like you have no regrets, right right right? XD

Love is giving someone the power to destroy you but trusting them enough not to. But can I trust you with my heart when I can't even begin to trust myself with it?

Sunday, February 21, 2010

::Party Aftermath::

Ohmigosh~ D2's party was awesomely awesome~ ^-^ So many people I knew were gracing us with their presence like a certain jovial pixie and 'Darwin' wannabe. xD My God, kudos to them for the epic music they blasted from the speakers~ Not only did they play Straight Through My Heart, but they also played Sorry Sorry! Talk about going after my heart. xP

Another major plus point would be the food. Gosh, the food was really really good! That was the first time ever I tried steam boat and I loved it to the max~ <3 But I think the experience was a hell lot better since all my friends were around to enjoy it with me. =] Later on, Jixie and Rooban sang I'm Yours with Roobz on the vocals and Jixie as the awesome guitarist. True, it was a tad off-key, but alright nonetheless. ^^

I tried my best not to leave and ended up staying pretty late. ^^ll I don't quite know who else were still hanging around, but Darren, Reg, Bryan and I were out chillax-ing in the hall. Bubb and Darren were trying to play the guitars but Bryan interrupted by playing the Mission Impossible song...that was sang by a freaking rooster. We busted out laughing at that. xD

All in all, it was a totally super fun blast~ =) I got too see Prinietha in a drop-dead-gorgeous blue cheongsam, take loads of random and candid pictures, laugh till my sides ached, enjoyed plenty of guitar music to last a lifetime and sang along till my throat was sore. x] I seriously cant think of a better way to spend a night. =] Anywho, gotta go. >< Dad is making me finish some Maths work before going to bed. ==

it's amazing how easily you hide your feelings behind words.

Saturday, February 20, 2010

::Holiday Mayhem::

Woots~!! D2's party is tommorow~! xD Teehee, I'm so totally pysched for it~ ^^ I can't wait to go and have a blast with all my buddies~ I missed them oh so very very much these past few lonesome days. >> I swear, this is the one and only downside of holidays. T_T

Anywho, I'm currently stressing about something trivial. Again. xD Great Lordy Lord Lord~ I'm totally freaking about my English oral assignment. >< I mean I have to: a) recite it in front of the entire class; b) make it last for at least 5 minutes and c) be considered majorly lucky if I even manage to score 2-3 points. ==

Ain't that just bloody brilliant? Oh, and please note the sarcasm wedged in there... ==ll Damn, I wish someone would just shoot me now. -__- It would make things so much easier. xD

when the world walked out, 
i saw an angel when you walked in and picked me up~

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

::Beautiful Sights::

Whooaaaa~ Yesterday yours truly, Fiona and, sadly, my bro too - >< - went together to go and see the Festival of Lights at i-City!! Two words: Wicked Awesome~! It was so utterly, incomprehensibly cool~ I mean, it wasn't as if it was a masterpiece or something, but it had a certain wow factor to it all. ^^ Plus, it was sparkly. Brownie points for that. xDD

Basically, we went walking and exploring around. Pretty hard when it was super crowded. xD Therefore, I couldn't get any decent pics. == Damn those people that kept getting in my way. -___- Plus, we left at 7.45pm and only came home only around 11pm. O.o I think it was partially due to the fact we were sadly and pathetically lost too. ^^lll Ah well, it was still nice and a pretty cool way to spend my day. =]

love is blind for only then can you truly see what lies within.

Saturday, February 13, 2010

::The Beginning::

Erm...well... <.< ... >.> ...should I be saying welcome? xD Meh, I pretty much made this bloggie purely to brag to my buddies cause I have one. ^^ Teehee~ xP Anywho, I'm blur about blogs and super lazy to type, so dont expect updates all too often. x] Byeeeee~ x)