Sunday, August 29, 2010

::Things I'll Never Say::

Gosh darn it, I cant sleep tonight. == Staring at the ceiling doesn't seem to be helping either. >< Amazingly enough, now at 12.38 in the morning, all alone in my quiet little room with the AC blasting, I feel depressed. O.o Such a totally weird state to be in right now. -__- Plus, no Bubb to vent to. Sorry me bloggie, but looks like you gotta suffer my emo-ness again. =P

At times, I truly can't help but wonder. Could it be that we're just avoiding all of it? Running so far away to prevent having to face the bitter truth. Hiding so deep within the shadows so it may never find us. Burying our hearts so far gone until we are oblivious to those hidden feelings. Between you and I, I think these efforts of ours are just wasting our precious time. Moments in time that could have been spent in so many better ways.

Those burning feelings we stifle deep in our hearts, lurking at the corners, begging to be released... I'm always torn between two choices. Should they be brought to light and spoken aloud when the cost is hurting your fragile heart? Or should they be tucked away in silence as we move on in our lives despite it killing me slowly inside? Every time I think of this, a single thought plagues my mind: Which would be better? To be hurt or to hurt...?

tears are the words in your heart that could never be spoken,
so i'm glad to stand under the pouring rain,
for none can see the caged words leave my heart silently.

Sunday, August 8, 2010


Gah. I can't remember the last time I touched my blog. .w.  Seriously, my mind can't grasp a single shred of the memory. @u@ I offer thee my humblest apologies me precious beloved bloggie~ T.T I promise I shall try my best to update as often as I possibly can~ Oh damn, I forgot. PMR is slowly inching closer and closer. I wont even have time to come online. T^T

Yeah, though it's a couple of months away and my despicable trials are next week, it still hasn't registered into my brain that my doomsday is closer than ever. >.< Looking around to see my friends studying their butts off isn't fazing me either. .-.  Long story short, I'm such a goner. Gosh, I still haven't touched my books. My Dad will burn me where I stand. .w.

Bah~ I'll just tell my stressing brain to shove it. xD Time to cheer up~ I solemnly swear I shall - attempt to - study the best I can~ That means no giving up after the first thirty seconds and snoozing on my books. -coughs- Then, to kill some so-called stress, I shall sneak off to the Asaban in Taylor's, stalk hot cosplayers, daydream about Adam Lee Tek Jun and get high on my epic songs~ xD

when the clouds clear and the sun is here,
with your hand in mine, i shall give it my all,
and, i promise you, we will touch the impossible sky.