::Breezy Days::

Aaah~ The days seem to be flickering by so fast~ Just a second ago it was the first day of the month and now it's the end of the first week. =/ Sometimes I just wish time would stop breezing by and just pause to let me catch my breath. ><

The past is a tempting place to live in and the future...well, it leaves less to be desired for. >> But still, the present is pretty awesome, despite the disappearing time, so I guess I'll just have to make do then. XD Plus, there's an epicly epic teddy and cookies in the present, so why not? =P

Weeelll~ These past few days, I've been busy lazing about and getting conned to go for prom. I gotta admit though, I'm kinda curious and a tad bit interested in it. ^^;; But after a chat with a moronic douche, I'm worried about going. == Argh, whatever~ I'll just update my story to vent. xD Toodles~ ^^

time is like the wind, it lifts the light and leaves the heavy. ♥

::I'm Back~::

I'm actually afraid to calculate how long I've been gone. .w. Ooo laa laa~ Many things happened these past few months~ Of course, some I'd gladly share, but the others..meh, it's a secret for now. x) It was humiliating enough to share with my Bubb which is weird since I tell her pretty much everything under the sun. xP I never want to go through that process again. >< And I thought the hardest thing was admitting who I had a crush on. Ugh. Junk. ==

Anywho, moving on to less awkward stuff~ xP Due to enduring Banana Split ramble about it at any free moment, I eventually picked up You're Beautiful and watched it. Oh. Em. Gee. It was so so so cool~ Ohmigosh, Jeremy! He's so damn freaking cute and naive and funny and all out adorable! xD I love that cutesy blondie with all my heart~ ♥ I swear he can do no wrong in my eyes. =] Sadly, I still think Boys Over Flowers is waaaay better than this drama though. Shush~ Don't tell Banana Split. XD

Anyways~ Looks like I left my story hanging once again. >w> Lawl, I'm sure Bubb knows how often that's happened before. x3 Okies then, time to update~ xD Toodles~

procrastination is the only field i can forever excel in. ♥

::Things I'll Never Say::

Gosh darn it, I cant sleep tonight. == Staring at the ceiling doesn't seem to be helping either. >< Amazingly enough, now at 12.38 in the morning, all alone in my quiet little room with the AC blasting, I feel depressed. O.o Such a totally weird state to be in right now. -__- Plus, no Bubb to vent to. Sorry me bloggie, but looks like you gotta suffer my emo-ness again. =P

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At times, I truly can't help but wonder. Could it be that we're just avoiding all of it? Running so far away to prevent having to face the bitter truth. Hiding so deep within the shadows so it may never find us. Burying our hearts so far gone until we are oblivious to those hidden feelings. Between you and I, I think these efforts of ours are just wasting our precious time. Moments in time that could have been spent in so many better ways.

Those burning feelings we stifle deep in our hearts, lurking at the corners, begging to be released... I'm always torn between two choices. Should they be brought to light and spoken aloud when the cost is hurting your fragile heart? Or should they be tucked away in silence as we move on in our lives despite it killing me slowly inside? Every time I think of this, a single thought plagues my mind: Which would be better? To be hurt or to hurt...?

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tears are the words in your heart that could never be spoken,

so i'm glad to stand under the pouring rain,

for none can see the caged words leave my heart silently.

::Ramblings::

Gah. I can't remember the last time I touched my blog. .w.  Seriously, my mind can't grasp a single shred of the memory. @u@ I offer thee my humblest apologies me precious beloved bloggie~ T.T I promise I shall try my best to update as often as I possibly can~ Oh damn, I forgot. PMR is slowly inching closer and closer. I wont even have time to come online. T^T

Yeah, though it's a couple of months away and my despicable trials are next week, it still hasn't registered into my brain that my doomsday is closer than ever. >.< Looking around to see my friends studying their butts off isn't fazing me either. .-.  Long story short, I'm such a goner. Gosh, I still haven't touched my books. My Dad will burn me where I stand. .w.

Bah~ I'll just tell my stressing brain to shove it. xD Time to cheer up~ I solemnly swear I shall - attempt to - study the best I can~ That means no giving up after the first thirty seconds and snoozing on my books. -coughs- Then, to kill some so-called stress, I shall sneak off to the Asaban in Taylor's, stalk hot cosplayers, daydream about Adam Lee Tek Jun and get high on my epic songs~ xD

when the clouds clear and the sun is here,

with your hand in mine, i shall give it my all,

and, i promise you, we will touch the impossible sky. ♥

::Boys Over Flowers::

Oooo~ Again, I failed to update for a super long time. T~T Okies, I shall rant my heart out about my newest craze, kay? x] Lately, me buddy Nadhirah keeps gushing over this Korean drama she's been watching called Boys Over Flowers. ^^ Since she seemed so madly in love with it, I decided to borrow it and have a go to see just what exactly all the fuss was about. xD

Even before I was halfway through the series, I clearly understood why all the girls went crazy over it. I'm now a fan girl of it too. *^* My God, even the beginning got me hooked. ♥ I mean, I've yet to watch a series where the pauper heroine working in a laundry shop gets sent to deliver a uniform to a student about to jump off a roof and commit suicide. Wonderful first meeting indeed. XD

It was interesting to watch her grudgingly accept a scholarship into a super elite school as requested by the principal to quell the waves of media. Of course, the paparazzi went berserk when the four hottest and richest guys in Korea played a part in the student's almost death~ Especially since the moment Jan Di steps into the school, all hell breaks lose. >:D

The boys in F4 and Jan Di kept me company through many sleepless nights. ♥ But of course, my eyes keep straying over to Ji Hoo whenever I see the whole lot of them. Man, he's so sweet, cute, nice, quiet, kind, sleepy, adorable and drool-worthy~ I could go on all day about him~ XD If a guy like that existed in real life, I'd be in heaven alright~ ♥

i'm all alone crying just for you,
you know my heart is missing for you,
baby, i love you, i'm waiting for you!

::Super Junior::

Ohmigosh! Ohmigosh! I just came home from SuJu's awesomely awesome, mind blowing, outta this world, ferociously epic concert! =3 Oh gosh, they were the epitome of all that is stellar, cool and holy in this world tonight. xD I felt totally breathless as I watched them sing to tunes I brainwashed myself with and dance perfectly to every beat. Mith and I were screaming our lungs out in ecstasy and bounced excitedly in our seats from the moment they came onto stage till we had to leave. Wow-za!

Yeah, the concert may have started an hour later. Yeah, we had to wait in a long line to enter the stadium since the obsessed fans were already waiting hours before it started. Yeah, we had some trouble with our seats. But for the surreal dream like experience I got after the concert was over, I'd do it all over again. xD God, I don't even know where to start! xP

Okies, how about the first song they sang? =] As my ingenious brain carefully planned out during the long waiting time, my prediction that they would sing U to kick things off came true. ^-^  After that song, it's all a bunch of hazy memories filled with euphoric screaming. xDD But I do vaguely remember some of the songs like Knock Out, Shining Star, Rokoko, Sorry Sorry, Super Girl, Don't Don, It's You, Sorry Sorry Answer and What If. Of course, there's a hell lot more, but my brain turned into mush after that. *^*

Oh yeah, during the intervals where they rested for a bit to gear up for the next song, they had set up some stuff to occupy our time like cutesy plays and such. I cant remember most of them, but one was this video where a few of the SuJu members like Siwon were fighting off thugs in the rain. When they slowed some parts down to emphasize certain scenes, I drooled. x] It was then and there I knew the definition of the word hot. =3

Then, when they were singing Shining Star before the concert ended, my darling Leetuk looked into the audience which were using their flashlights to represent stars and he broke down. With tears in his eyes, he bowed over and over and said Thank You like a broken record. I felt so touched by that. =] God, they are so damn sweet! I'd pay any crazy amount to see them again next year, if they came down. ^-^ Anywho, I better stop now before this becomes the longest rant-filled post ever. xD

when i tell you i love you thousands of times,

even if my heart is on fire and as my lips dry,

if i am born again, it is still only you~ ♥

::Poems::

Damn, I'm feeling freakishly bored. >< I've got no manga nor stories to read so the Internet isn't offering me anything to do. Yeah, that's pretty much the end of the world. xD To make things worse, there isn't a person to bug within a two feet distance. == So I thought I'd just type out a poem that's been bugging me since, oh say about three minutes ago. xP Ignore the lameness of it all. It was inspired by a feather after all. xDD

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He took my hand,

He helped me up,

He brushed me off,

Like only angels can...

He found my heart,

When nobody could,

And he fixed it up,

Like only angels can...

He saw through me,

And all the walls and lies,

Giving back my smile,

Like only angels can...

He looked me in the eye,

And told me he'll always love me,

Blessing me a happiness,

Like only he can...